Heart of Glass

Leave it to John Mayer to put together a song that actually expresses what I think most of us in our late 20's and early 30's are feeling.  I guess I should qualify that by saying that most of us who aren't married with families (and possibly those of us that do) probably feel about the state of our lives.  It seems a little like suspended animation, yet there's a war going on somewhere deep down that we have to wrestle with each day.  Aren't we supposed to know who we are and what we're about by this point?

It's strange to find out new things about yourself, that things you always thought you knew about you have changed without you realizing it.  Since when am I fascinated with Asian cuisine, after years of thinking it was completely overrated?  How can I realize in the shower one morning that I think I'd like to be a stand up comic, because I know that if I could write the right routine, I'd kill it?  Who is this person?  Is she me?  I've never wanted to be on a stage.

I supposed I'm just finding out that I'm more than I thought I was.  I'm realizing that I'm not scared anymore, of much.  The things I fear are less abstract now.  I know that I'm on the threshold of a turning point that I can't turn back from: mid life.  I'm not so young anymore, but I have no choice but to keep feeling the same... With these strange new developments.

"War of My Life"

Come out Angels
Come out Ghosts
Come out Darkness
Bring everyone you know

I'm not running
I'm not scared
I am waiting and well prepared

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of Time and there's no where to run

I've got a hammer
And a heart of glass
I got to know right now
Which walls to smash

I got a pocket
Got no pills
If fear hasn't killed me yet
Then nothing will

All the suffering
And all the pain
Never liked to label

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run

I'm in the war of my life
At the core of my life
I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

No more suffering
No more pain
Never again

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's no where to run

I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done
So Fight on, fight on everyone, so fight on
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

Thanks, Mr. Mayer.